OutPost

A waste of time. Blaming myself. Feeling nothing. Investing too much. Tearing down a wall. I've lost my self-control. I've lost myself in someone else. Resting all of my happiness in the lap of another. My greatest mistake. It meant nothing. Some sad regret. A thought that brings aching to my chest. I squint my eyes and try to forget. It could be so easy for you. It is so easy for you to turn away. I hope that you feel this some day. I haven't good rest in days. I haven't felt myself. I haven't been back to normal. I need to keep busy. I need to keep writing. I have a show in two days. Maintain focus. I should really buy some strings tomorrow. My car won't stop over heating. It's making me very upset. I hope it'll be alright. It keeps leaking anti-freeze. I need to find the leak. There's so much that needs to be done. I don't want to keep dwelling on an individual person. My first taste of love. I have to remember that I'm only 18. I feel so old. I'm writing new music. Moving forward I guess