I Was A Lover For a Week

I laid my hand on your forehead and checked your temperature
I kissed your eyelids, kissed the bridge of your nose and fell into a slumber
I ran my hands all along the physical nation that was your body
discovered new land and claimed it for my own

"You belong to me and when you have someone's belongings, you take care of them"

I've been clean from the ole scripts for several months now. I hadn't even thought of it until just now. How easy it has become to say no to those little white pills. It's astonishing really.

I moved to Bloomington a month and 9 days ago. My love flew the nest 15 days ago. I became a half two months and 14 days ago. I will be refreshed in 2 days. I will be a whole in two months and 28 days.

I'm going to Nashville in two days. I can't wait. I got asked to play in the broadripple music festival October 16th. I'll be playing at Indy Cd/Vinyl at 2:00 pm and then at 10:30 pm at the Jazz Kitchen w/mystikos quintet. Should be one hell of a time

Why keep such a huge part of me a secret. There are so many medicinal uses it's not even funny. When my mind gets all out of wack and I start to feel like I'm going crazy, it helps calm me down and think. Those who want to argue the legality and morality of marijuana are people I have no ears for.
Alcohol, this vile and toxic poison, is allowed to be sold and consumed. This vile poison, that creates an avenue for people to behave in such an animalistic and lustful nature, is considered better than a plant? the absurdity is mind boggling. and to think it's legality is based purely off of racism is not so surprising in this nation ran by conservative racists.

Of course, this is all opinion. I understand that it's not for everyone. and I understand all of the dark underbelly that comes with marijuana. But honestly which is worse, a severe drunk...or...a severe pothead? the pot head may be annoying, but the drunk is just downright sad. I'm done ranting about mary jane. No shame in being an advocate of decriminalization.

I should be careful of what I say. If ever I become famous, then everything'll be taken out of context

Blow Smoke

Time runs out and skirts down the drain, like your precious gold chain
with a coat hanger and light, you're trying your best to fish it out
but, we don't get time, we don't get to make up sleep, we don't get to redo anything

I'm a nervous wreck, trying to write music, trying to keep busy and out of trouble.
Trying to smoke and still get shit done. Writing...new music is soon approaching

Lunar Eyes

Lunar Eyes by Crescent Ulmer

One of my favorite songs that I've written
check it out and the others as well if you wish.

My friend Melanie and I are working on some music together right now, so expect something good from it.

Am I Alive

This is going to be one hell of a week. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I have driving lessons. Finally getting that damn license. Thursday is my birthday and I'm turning 18. My game plan is to blow 20 dollars strictly on cigarettes. I can't wait to go to the smoke shop and purchase those organic spirits I've heard so much about. I've tried every other, but not those. I really want a pack of imports as well. I'm going to go crazy.

Also that same day I have a meeting with the guys from Mystikos Quintet. I've been keeping this music project under wraps because I don't want to jinx it and I really want to surprise people. My friend and I are heading to Broadripple after school, cannot wait to sink my teeth into these tracks.

Saturday, is RECORD STORE DAY!!! I can't wait. So many good bands, I'm going to be heaven!!! I can't wait to play. Moving to Bloomington, signing the lease, just gotta graduate highschool

A Trip to the Zoo

Towards the end of February, a few friends and I went on a weekend field trip to the zoo. It was perfect, we carpooled, everyone was really cool and we practically had the whole zoo to ourselves. It was one darn good Saturday. We went to the dolphin show and the daring ones sat in the Splash Zone. They did get wet and we warned em. We saw the meer kats, they were so cute. One of them had monstrous balls, they were insanely huge in comparison to his body. We deemed him the alpha meer kat for sure.

Tommy and I worked as a team so that I could actually see the tigers. It was awesome, first time I saw one out and about. Same with the bear, he was just hanging out.












Photos taken by Aleya Lanteigne

Spring Fever

Spring Break has come and gone! It was a good time-out from the the monotony of daily life, but insanely, I kind of miss it. I'm looking forward to getting back in school and working. It was nice to be unrestrained, but now it's time to be disciplined. It was so much fun, Saturday night was great, I wrote in my thought book that night: Tonight, I feel alive 4/03/10.

I've been really getting into biking and I try to do it as much as I can. I like to ride to my friend's house. I figure I have to train myself for Bloomington. I have to get used to riding in traffic, but I can't ride at night until I get a reflector jacket. I think I might wear a helmet as well. Why not be safe, you're dealing with cars.

I've completely lost track of time.

I'm playing with Bears of Blue River!! Fucking BEARS OF BLUE RIVER!!! this is huge and Sanuk. Holy shit, these are bands I look up to in the Indiana music scene and they're going to be right in front of me playing, maybe they'll see me play too. A girl can dream.

Slothpop, another band I'm sharing the stage with, is amazing!!! her voice is so damn pure. It never ceases to give me chills. I cannot wait for April 17th. It's going to be life changing

The Mystikos Quintet project is coming along so well, but I'm keeping it under wraps because I don't want to jinx it. I want this to work out, really badly.

Holy Cow! I lost track of time. Time for bed.

I've been writing

I can't help but feel a little lonely. Lately, things don't matter quite like they used to. There are a few things, though, that do.

I went on a five mile night bike ride with my friend last week. We rode from Plainfield to Avon. It was grueling, but it was completely worth it. Yesterday (Saturday) friend Dylan and I went woods-walking for six hours. we pretty much covered half of Avon, it was amazing. We climbed this tree and smoked a cigarette on one of it's huge branches. Our friend joined us on the latter half of the walk. it was a really good time.

Spring Break is next week, I'm pretty excited. I'm hoping to be working by then. All my guitars are broken. I don't know what to do with myself.

It's been over a month since I last abused painkillers. I'm feeling so much better about this time. I'm also cutting back on smoking.

National Record Store day is April 17th. I cannot wait to play. If you live around Broadripple, IN get your ass over there early. It's gonna be a great day. My birthday is two days prior and I can't wait for that either.

well...
Nevermind my useless ramblings, I'll get to feeling better, just a little spring fever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FkON8hqXbh8

A Sigh/Winter Approaches

I wrote this for my bestfriend, the first minute is bullshit, but it gets better. I promise

I keep playing guitar and hoping that I can find you in the strumming. I can't.
I keep singing and hoping that I'll find you in the writing. I can't.

I want more than anything, to clean myself off and rinse you away. I've been trying so hard. Can you tell?